March 13th, 2020
Friday
Intro Post [sticky]
08:21am
mood::
good
Welcome to my journal! Pleased to meet you!
Mainly I babble and sometimes I post art, and I am almost always sort of ridiculous and flaily. I am 24, live in Seattle with my partner
laylah and am currently attending college in *mutter* *mumble* *mutter*. Okay, so I've changed my major so many times it's anyone's guess what I'll end up with.
Please feel free to friend and defriend me at will -- I am always happy to chatter with people, but I don't mind if you just lurk, either. Or, if you're some sort of master internet ninja, both at the same time is also cool. I have a horrible memory for names/faces, so unless we talk everyday, I'll probably forget. It's not you, it's me, I promise!
I don't have a rating set on my journal, nor do I set ratings on my posts. I was busy fucking right off LJ during the time all that was implemented, and honestly I still believe it's pretty dumb. but around here you'll probably find Language and art of a very suggestive or just plain-out-telling-you (forget the suggestions) nature. However, my alignment is neutral good with a side of lawful, so I'll follow the goddamn rules and tag for adult content, when applicable, on a going-forward basis.
I can also be found:
[dreamwidth]
[y-gallery]
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  July 11th, 2009
Saturday
Counselor Get!
09:01am
mood::
excited
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  June 29th, 2009
Monday
Kaloo kaleigh no work today~
08:23am
mood::
lonely
Actually that's a lie. A dirty, dirty lie. Today I am at work all by my lonesome, guarding this front desk with my life, from 8-5! This desk is safe as motherfucking houses, let me tell you. I am on this.
GOD IF YOU CAN'T TELL I'M ALREADY REALLY BORED. This is where you come in! (Hopefully. Please? Please. Okay.)
I want to play a writing game! Madness, I know. So. Give me a character(s)/pairing and a prompt, and I will give you a sentence or two or a drabble or whatever, which I will write inbetween making these really, really engaging file labels.
Rule...thing. Hook. Catch. Whatever: Please phrase your prompt in the form of a Friends' episode title. (IE: The One With Chandler in a Box; The One With All the Poker; The One Where Ross Finds Out)* IF YOU NEED MORE INSPIRIATION here is a list of Friends' episode titles, for illustration purposes. You can use those if you really want to; I haven't seen more than a handful of Friends' episodes and not in years, so odds of me duplicating the episode are low.
Fandoms I can probably handle:
Tales of Vesperia
Tales of the Abyss
Baccano!
Last Remnant (although there are like a zillion characters in this, s-so maybe not everyone)
...Persona 4
You can ask about other things but I make no promises. ...I make no promises on quality either way. H-Hahaha what do I think I'm doing :x
EDIT I'M REALLY REALLY SLOW, OKAY. S-Sob. I will get to everyone though ^^;
( List, so far )
*please note it doesn't need to be the actual title of a Friends' episode, just phrased that way.
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  June 26th, 2009
Friday
But now it's the weekend
05:07pm
Have been feeling a little bit like this all week ( Read more... )
And have been trying to actively remind myself of how good life actually is, in little ways.
For instance, it's friday at 5pm; It's very sunny out, and I walked home today; Yesterday I made two dozen raspberry-filled cupcakes, and they are delicious (recipe to be posted in
and_cupcakes probably this weekend?);
vector and
cypher will be home soon, and we will have delicious dinner, the aforementioned cupcakes and probably do something X-TREME like play video games we have already beaten because we enjoy them that much; Still enjoying Vesperia that much.
Also the Seattle Pride Parade is this weekend, and that always makes me feel happy and squishy ♥
PS: sorry to all the people I haven't yet responded to on my last post -- I will totally come back to you, but I sort of burned myself out on the topic and killed my arms with that much typing, wednesday ^^;
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  June 24th, 2009
Wednesday
(Hopefully) In Brief
08:17am
mood::
contemplative
I don't have a lot left to say about the Warning Wank that I haven't said else/other people haven't covered, but there is one point that keeps sticking with me, and I've seen it come up in a couple places now.
I realize this is treading on taking it too seriously, but honestly I think I lot of people are taking it too seriously already ("Artistic integrity"? Of your fan fiction?), so I want to point this out: I hope that this is not the intent, but when I see the sentiment that the reader needs to take responsibility for themselves, as in, if you are the sort of person who could be triggered by rape/noncon/dubcon, then maybe you should just not read any thing ever again fic with no warnings on it, just in case, all I can hear is:
--and you shouldn't wear skirts, or go out late at night, or anywhere alone. Don't live on the ground floor of buildings, or smile at strangers, or be alone at home with a close male friend. And if you do get hurt, for god's sake don't tell anybody about it, because they'll only say it was your fault (you were probably asking for it, you slut). Everyone knows no one ever comes when you yell "help", anyway. Maybe you should just never leave the house again, honestly. You know, just in case.
There's something to be said for looking out for yourself, of course, but why is the onus always on the victim?
An edit to clarify: this falls under "things I have already said elsewhere", but I want to make it clear that I'm not cranky at people who don't warn because they weren't expecting someone to read/are posting within a pairing/community where it would be unexpected to NOT see these themes; what I'm talking about here is the argument that one should purposefully NOT warn, even when you are 100% aware that you have triggering issues, because otherwise it ruins the surprise.
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  June 21st, 2009
Sunday
So about those Vampires.
09:43pm
mood::
I like to watch you sleep.
Buffy vs Edward Cullen
a really cleverly edited short vid, showing just how creepy Edward really is. And also how rad Buffy is. <3
Nabbed from
rivendellrose
In other news, How's My Driving meme indicates that I never play, but when I do it's only Capell and then I instantly thread drop. Good to know. Things! To work on.
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  June 19th, 2009
Friday
Aaaaauuurrrrgaaaaahh~
07:51am
mood::
aggravated
So my father has been asking me if I'd be interested in designing his company a website for, oh, years now. I kept telling him I would theoretically be interested, but, being in school/working full time, I didn't have time, sorry.
Apparently he took that to mean he should just keep waiting.
Last night he sent me another request, says he feels like he is in the Dark Ages (okay, kinda true I guess) without one, and so can I help? I tell him I can design the look of the site, but if he wants any fancy user log-in or security stuff, he's going to need to get that from someone else.
This morning he writes back that, okay, he thinks he knows someone in town that can help, but he'd like me to be included in the process ("okay, honey!!"). Also, I should please note once again that he is in the Dark Ages. Oh and also he just added a web address to his listing in the telephone book. ("How's that for a forcing function. So, no turning back now!!")
Despite the fact that he has no such web address.
THIS IS NOT HOW THE INTERNET WORKS. Sob. Sob sob.
God this entire thing is going to be such a headache I just know it it's not like I can just write code and give it to him he probably doesn't even know how one sets up a web site or how to manage one and he probably hasn't thought about having someone to manage it and it's going to be like Jeff again thinking the internet is a self-sustaining money-printing-machine only worse because it is my father augh.
ETA Have sent father a long, detailed message on what I can provide, and what he will need to give me to make this possible.
He writes back, [kiwi] dear: great!! I new you'd know just what to do!!
orz
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  June 15th, 2009
Monday
Heads-up!
11:13am
Just did a flist trim; mainly it is people I, er, don't talk to for one reason or another, or people I can follow elsewhere (DW/IJ)
As per my user info, IT DOES NOT MEAN I HATE YOU FOREVER or even a little bit <3
And as always, you should feel free to unwatch me at any time (I don't have my notifs on), but if you were looking for an excuse, here is one ^^;
<3
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  June 10th, 2009
Wednesday
Done, Fini, Finito
05:15pm
mood::
okay
\o\ /o/ and that's my last final! I was kiiiinda worried about it, as it was a no-notes-no-anything essay question that he wouldn't give us any hints about beforehand, but... I think I did okay. I ended up writing for just 20 minutes shy of the full two hours given; five and a half pages defining some crucial words I wanted to use and that were in the wording of the question, which left me free to spend only about a page and a half answering the actual question with a rather eloquent poker metaphor, if I do say so myself.
But now my haaaaaaaands huuuuuuurt /whiny.
Other than that, it's a beautiful day, I still have one more day of glorious nothing before I go back to work, I have 95% of a ToV 1920's AU sketch sitting here, that I actually like, and there is a kitten forcing her head under my hand and purring. Life pretty good.
...I've forgotten to crosspost like my last three entries. Oops.
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  June 2nd, 2009
Tuesday
Camp Art Dump
01:36pm
mood::
hot
It's so hot. I want to die.
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  June 1st, 2009
I feel strangely girly today.
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  May 30th, 2009 They shouldn't fence at night, or they'll hurt the gymnasts
I wish to share this with you.
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  May 29th, 2009
I can't really very well play the ten OTPs game, because I don't have them, but everyone else is memeing so I want to, too. So how about this one.
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  May 20th, 2009 PSA
So heads up, I guess I'm like super cynical and underwhelmed by a lot of stuff today. Not really sure where that came from, but I feel like I'm making 8| face at everything today.
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  May 19th, 2009 Uwaaaahh~
Thunder and lighting, guys!
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  May 15th, 2009 This is now my "random" tag
⇒ There is a sign on the stairwell door here at the medical center with one of those red no-whatever symbols on it (like the ghostbusters logo, or no smoking signs) only it says "
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  May 13th, 2009 ...Alarmingly difficult.
My French homework for this evening should be simple, in theory. My assignment is to write three complete sentences, giving three reasons
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  May 7th, 2009 Tech Req?
Okay, so, about a year and a half ago, I was given a new computer for my birthday, from my parents. This is what I have, and it is indeed a gorgeous machine, that is, again, not really that old.
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  May 4th, 2009 I am very hungry and you can tell.
To start, I guess I want to preface by saying that everything I am going to say applies only to me, as far as I’m concerned. If you do or do not share my views, I don’t think of you any differently than I did five minutes ago. I will hope you will also not decide I am a loser. ^^a
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  May 1st, 2009 Since leaving work...
+It's a beautiful day outside! I have bare shoulders and bare legs and I was still almost hot! This is a big deal for me because I'm always cold.
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  April 29th, 2009 I'm a hooker
Sob. Will someone promise me fabulous prizes if I sit here and put dedicated work into my paper? I've been doing this for hours and my progress is so slow. I am running uphill against molasses here because I keep stopping to try and phrase things ~brilliantly~ in my head, and then fail at getting anything substantial actually down.
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  April 28th, 2009 To think about
Still working on the sketches from this weekend; thanks for being patient on that. Meanwhile, I am working on a paper for my anthropology course. From the text:
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  April 25th, 2009 Now I feel all moved in.
Because I have a layout. Which is essential, before I can start using a journaling site |D
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Can Has Dreamwidth Account
I am at kiwikiwi :Db
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  April 23rd, 2009 Critical Hit
O-Ow, that was my GPA >_o
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Now that that's out of the way! So the other day
So here is a dump of all the art I've done for
Finished
A quick draw-your-characters-in-what-you-wore-to
Worksafe
( Capell in Penguins )
And another of Capell for the crossdresser's ball -- there is nothing remotely Chinese in Capell's canon, but this was my absolute favorite unit, when I took my theatre-makeup class last summer, so I did Capell up in that style.
Worksafe
( I still really like this one )
With bonus makeup-less version here
This one I drew for Cypher and
vikarmic, whose characters (Edward and Stiaan) were in a relationship. Warning for full-frontal male nudity, fluids and oh yeah, sex.
( Damn Camp's No-Sex Rule )
Sketches
Capell and Shinkuro (
pomgrenadier's character) in modern-day casual wear.
Worksafe
( Read more... )
Edward and Stiaan again, naked and making out. What.
Not Worksafe
( Read more... )
Now I'm going to go ... sit outside. And enjoy the sunshine, dammit. /determined.
Monday
I just painted my nails. I haven't done that in... five years?
It's... very strange. My hands look strange. I used to paint them all the time -- alternating colors, crazy intricate plaids, that sort of thing -- but I'm so... unused to it.
I'm sure by tomorrow, when I feel all un-girly again, I'll be weirded out and have to take it off, but. Right now I guess it looks okay. I do like shiny colors, after all. (The amount of time spent just staring at my fingers: lots) Also, I've been picking at my cuticles lately and tearing some pretty vicious holes in my fingers. I'm hoping this will discourage that.
Also I am happy to report that I did not get color all over my fingers, despite having pretty short nails. I feel accomplished.
PS
subtext, I made cucumber kimchi for dinner last night. It was indeed tasty :d
Saturday
10:21am
mood::
amused
I pretty much never post YouTube videos, but. It. It's sort of beautiful, in a way. This is the literal version of Total Eclipse of the Heart, as in, they've replaced the lyrics with a description of what's going on in the music video.
( embedded video goes here )
... Really the only thing I can say is idk my bff the 80s?
nabbed from
naamah_darling
Friday
Ask me a question about my thoughts on _______
Really. Anything*. My current fandoms, my favorite pairings, my other pairings, my feelings on cheese, the state of economy, my current conspiracy theories, whatever.
I have two more hours at work, all my tasks are filing oriented but I'm stuck on the front desk, and it's extremely gorgeous outside. Please, distract me.
* my only caveat here is AmazonFail. Don't ask me about that.
Wednesday
02:42pm
mood::
cynical
If I'm accidentally kind of a butt to you by consequence, sorry in advance.
ETA things that make me happy include: ridiculous icons and entertaining writing games.
Tuesday
07:46pm
mood::
ecstatic
THUNDER AND LIGHTING
ETA:belated thanks to
scarletwings/
oceanic for pointing out that apparently I'm super hyped by thunder and floor lamps! |D
Friday
01:22pm
mood::
chipper
weapons" ...
Somehow, I feel that if you were the sort to bring weapons into the hospital, you then probably aren't the sort to head a polite sign asking you not to. Like "for everyone's safety, please do not murder people within the hospital". Oh, well, since you asked...
⇒ About ten minutes ago, one of the faculty came and stood in the doorway, which is maybe 10-15 feet away from where I am sitting. Not only could I very clearly smell her (perfume) from my desk, I can still smell her. It's sort of giving me a headache .____.
⇒SOME NEW THINGS I AM ENJOYING LATELY:Tales of Vesperia
I am liking this game so much. I mean, I sort of expected to, but not quite like this. The characters are just. Likeable. And while many of them are very much familiar archtypes, they're not as far off the deep end of the scale as other characters in other things have been, and I like that, too. It makes them easier to connect with. I like it when people are multi-faceted. Also, for the most part, our party is perceptive, holy cow. And Rita/Estelle is adorable ♥
It's really exciting for me to have another videogame that I... just want to sit and play all the time. Where I am excited to see what comes next. While I enjoyed P4, it didn't manage to hit that for me (in fact, there were times when I very much did not want to see what came next, so) and so it's been several months since I've felt like this. It makes my days drag a bit, but I have something to look forward to! and a motivation to get my homework done early...
Hana Kimi
Ohgosh this is adorable. Apparently I had been missing comedy-of-errors adorable shoujo in my life, lately, because oh gosh. I think I made it to chapter 100, yesterday. Overall, the development of the relationships feels really natural to me, and also -- this is going to come up a lot, I can tell -- super, super adorable.
The pacing also feels really natural here, and, even as the series stretches on, for the most part none of it feels like... tacked-on "event of the week" (like "monster of the day", only for shoujo romance plots); also I have reached the point where clearly "threesome" is the most desireable outcome :>
⇒ IT IS SO NICE OUTSIDE. I WANT TO BE OUT THERE SO MUCH.
Wednesday
06:36pm
mood::
confused
why
I might be
against slavery.
...My first reason is "because slavery works on the notion that some people are worth less as humans than others", and... It is, as my subject line says, remarkably difficult to come up with two more reasons that don't sound... glib? I mean, this is slavery we're talking about here. Because it's wrong is not a sufficient answer for this assignment but I don't feel that something like slavery needs a lot of in-depth examination as to why one might be opposed to it, at this point.
I WOULD HOPE.
Thursday
11:29am
mood::
content
But last weekend my dad called, and after some brief chat-about-nothing he comes out with "Oh, by the way, weren't you wanting a new computer?" Which. Is such an odd way to phrase that. As if it was something I had asked about before, or like it had come to him in a vision or something. "I don't know," he continues, "you kids these days, maybe you need something faster..?" Yes, my father actually says things like, "You kids these days".
And. While my first thought is that my younger brother must have done something very bad (because that is how my father works, not so much punishing bad behavior, but rewarding the other child in proportion to the wrongs of the first), and while I do not need nor had I thought about having a new computer...I cannot say that I am actually opposed to this idea either.
But I... do most of my shopping by visual appeal, and not actual practicality of product, so uh if anyone has any specific thoughts on what sort of machine I should be looking at, I am receptive to opinions!
What I would want
Obviously I don't need something huge, because I already have my current computer for graphics and such. But it is a pain in the ass to take my laptop anywhere with me, because ha ha 17" is not anything like lap sized, especially when my external keyboard is factored in.
I'm really just looking for something that I could do my internet stuff from, word processing, etc, and that would be easy to transport to school or on trips.
Probably I'd like to stay with Mac, because oou they are so pretty, but I am not married to that.
Monday
01:18pm
mood::
contemplative
Also, as it stands right now, not a lot is changing. I have at least mentally 'moved' to DW, but I will crosspost to LJ and answer comments to either location, because I don't want to force anyone one way or the other. I am not even really trying to convince anyone! And though all this is more about LJ than DW, I really just want to talk about me, and how the two are tied together.
( So About That LJ )
I KNOW THAT WAS A 1000 WORDS OF TL;DR GUYS REALLY and if you read it all then I will give you a prize. I also realize that it is deeply uncool to care so much about a blogging service, but I feel like, at least for me, there are other issues involved with it. AND I DON’T KNOW HOW TO STOP CARING ABOUT THINGS. I’m not actually sure I want to learn.
Friday
06:17pm
mood::
good
-Apparently the weather being gorgeous fucks up the traffic. Seattle drivers are all "Holy shit it's the sunlight, get in the car ... and then just sit there" 8|
-It took 12 minutes for my bus to travel a block and a half, at which point I just got off and walked home.
+As mentioned, still a lovely day out.
-Made it three blocks before realizing I'd dropped my keys somewhere.
+Only had to backtrack half a block to find them.
+Got catcalled out of windows twice, and a very nice! from some guy in a van who looked like somebody's grade-school math teacher. Still, compliments, right?
+My plans for the evening include drinking cocktails and watching terrible anime and that's all :Db
Wednesday
04:22pm
mood::
working
My work does not have to be brilliant, but it most definitely has to be present, self.
orz
Tuesday
02:32pm
music::
library silence
Among peoples of Sudan and in some West African societies where business is women's work, older women gained access to strategic information through their trade connections—and sometimes got rich. In order to make their political counsel available to the men running their society (who could not seek such advice from a woman), occasionally such a female would be formally declared to be male. This meant that she was allowed to marry other women (her own position as a man's wife would not be affected by this). Girls often saw such a union as a better deal than accepting marriage to the much older men their fathers picked out for them. When they married this female man, the girls continued to see their boyfriends. The children they bore belonged, of course, the their legal husband, the old woman. (It is a near-universal rule, even in Western legal systems, that for purposes of custody and affiliation, "the husband of the mother is the father of her child" unless and until proven otherwise.) Their husband's reason for accepting the "honor" of becoming a man was the opportunity to start her own descent line, something otherwise possible only for males.
Isn't culture fascinating? I know VDE is a little informal, and has been known to piss people off that way, but all in all I am really enjoying reading this book. Fascinating stuff, a lot of the time.
Saturday
09:05pm
mood::
chipper
So to really kick my dreamwidth journal off, have a meme! Via... everyone! That I have modified so that I can play with it:
The first TEN people to comment in this post (on either journal) get to request a sketch of any pairing/character of their choosing from me, supposing it's one I know (or they can provide reference for). In return, they have to may post this in their journal.
1. Dojima/Adachi, for
cypher
2. Junpei/Akihiko, for
nyxmidnight
3. Shinjiro + Koromaru, for
white_aster
4. Yukiko/Chie cuteness, for
rachia
5. Souji/Ai fluff, for
scootermcgaffin
6. Souji/Minato, for
omghaet
7. Corinthian-related goodness, for
das_dingsi
8. Guy and Luke, for
mitsuhatchi
9. Souji/Yukiko, for
lassarina
10. Shinjiro/Akihiko, for
regicidaldwarf
Haha, it goes without saying that I'll be slooow getting these done, yeah? ^^ Ah, I'm so out of practice again...
posted from Dreamwwidth
02:48pm
I haven't really and truly decided what to do with it, yet. Probably I will move there more fully when the open beta goes up and more people get be there! I will think about my crossposting options and stuff later, when I have brain power.
Thursday
10:18am
mood::
sore
I can't even be properly bawwww over it because, for the effort I put into that paper, that was exactly the grade I deserved. So. Just. HEY. SELF. TRY HARDER. Okay!
And I want to write this paper, even. I have an idea I want to talk about, and a thesis diagram I am excited about, just. When I'm home, my productivity drops to zero. .___. I think maybe next week I'll bring my laptop in and do some work in the library. T^T